ILLUSIONS

What if I told you that I was ill
And you've made me sick forever
What if I told you I now live in illusions
And I cant heal myself, never

What if I told you that I was dying
From the poison you gave me
What if you only loved truly
And had never begraved me

What if all those words were lies
And I never meant anything to you
What if all these words are?
So that getting over me is easy for you

What if those moments were dreams
And you dreamt them too
What if these moments are?
Could I regret loving you?

What if you told me that you still love me
Would I ever think it's true
What if I said all the things I wanted to say
Would it mean anything to you?

What if you had told me that pain is what you do
I would have done the same instead of loving you

NAQIS

Kaun kehta hay
Kay tum bewafa niklay
Dukh tho meri wafa ka hay
Jiskay kayee janazay niklay

Meri wafa ka surkh kuffan
Jissay shauq se tumnay bheja tha
Uss kuffan kay guz bhi
Chaar haath kam niklay

Qismat ki baat hay
Wafa ya bewafai ki nahi
Meri naqis mohabbat kay
Tum haqdaar na niklay

Agar dhoonda jaye
Nuqs tho khuda mein bhi hay
Bewafai ko khuda bana kay
Hum hee bay-emaan niklay

AAJ KI KHABAR

Aaj raat kuch jaanna chahthi hoon
Koi bhi khabar, kuch bhi

Koi hass gaya, koi khel gaya
Koi mar gaya, koi mil gaya
Koi kahani apnana chahthi hoon
Koi bhi khabar, kuch bhi

Kissi ko salaam, kissi ko dua
Apnoon ko choro, ghairoon ki salah
Taazi nahi, puraani chahthi hoon
Koi bhi khabar, kuch bhi

Jisko sunn kar naya sa lagay
Jisko jaan kar munn ye kahay
Khud ko pehchanna chahthi hoon
Sunnaa do khabar kuch bhi

Jaisay saza sunai jaati hay
Bin bulaye mehmaan ki tarah
Apnay aangan mein bitthana chahthi hoon
Aaj lay aao khabar kuch bhi

ENCOUNTER

Tonight, I met u again
Nice to see you
Im pretty fucked up
Hope you are too

Ive been dying
Ive been crying
Everything that you never did
Did it for both of us, while u got rid

Of my hopes
Of my dreams
Of my innocence
You came clean

You've been lying
Been denying
You know this pain too
Why did I deserve this, what did i do

Im pretty fucked up
Hope you are too

A FAVORITE PASTIME

wonderful isnt it?
to bathe in the sun
to fight the breeze
and play in the trees

wonderful is the sun
when it shines on u and me
when it hides behind
and u call me sunshine

more wonderful it was to look at me
and a favorite pastime was all u cud see

joyous isnt it?
to collect raindrops
in the form of my soul
and devour me whole

wonderful is the rain
when it falls on u and me
ur hand in mine
and u call us divine

more wonderful it was to look at me
and a favorite pastime was all u cud see

NOTHING BUT DIRT

I am the sunshine that burns u inside
I am the safety that makes u collide
I am the sweetness thats salty
I am perfectness thats faulty

Or am I

Just Hurt
Waiting to be disposed
Yes I am, Nothing but dirt

I am the warmth that made u cold
Uncouth love that got old
I am the universe with no center
I am heaven that you wont enter

Or am I

Just Hurt
Waiting to be disposed
Yes I am, Nothing but dirt

BAY MISAAL

Ishq kia tha bay misaal
Kabhi kia aur kabhi nahi
Aaj thakawat say bayhaal
Tho aaj ishq ka mood nahi?

Iss ishq ka kia karoon
Jo thamm sa gaya hay
Aap kahein tho bas....
Dil bhar sa gaya hay

Ishq aik jazba hay
Koi kia karay ga
Jo aap nay kia hay
Kia bhi aur nahi bhi

BLACK HOLE

There's a black hole in my soul
I wait for it to finish what's left

I fed it, memories, my tears, my sleep
I fed it, love

I threw in my faith n dreams
All possibilities
The ungrateful black hole
Wants nothing but me

I fed it, deception, ur words, ur lies
I fed it, truth

I fed it all the ugliness
That I could see
It wants more than that
Wants nothing but me

I fed it, torture, pain and shame
I fed it, my heart

I gave in and begged it to
Set my soul free
It wouldnt settle for anything
Wants nothing but me

I stand at the edge and
Stare pointlessly
My brittle existance, and the darkness
Waiting to devour me