Prayalysis

Last night HE disabled my senses
Anything but afraid
I prayed lying frozen
I prayed

I prayed to keep me disabled
I prayed to make me deaf and dumb
What difference would've it made?
I prayed

I prayed to take my life away
So I never step off of that bed
I prayed for the tears to fade
I prayed

I prayed I couldnt speak again
And lay helpless as an excuse
To never stop your soul again
I prayed

I prayed I couldnt move again
To remain limbless and lifeless on that bed
To never hold ur hand again
I prayed

I prayed I couldnt open these eyes again
To make me blind and unable to find
Unable to trace that face again
I prayed

I prayed effortlessly
To restrict my next breath
To experience death
I prayed

I prayed to make me mush
Crumble all my flesh and bone
So I could'nt hurt you and push
I prayed

But who would tell you
That I was dead
'May you never notice'
I prayed

I prayed
I prayed
I prayed
Untill I broke the silence with ur name

SHAMELESS??

painless
senseless and sweatless
out of breath

sleepless
dreamless
weightless...not much left

pennyless
jobless
limitless...thats who i was

scopeless
aimless
a coward...thats who i am

timeless
startless and endless, where to begin
emptiness, thats where im in

pointless
wordless
nothing to prove, no one to blame

hopeless
baseless and trustless
defenseless...thats who i am

loveless
lifeless
pittyless and barren

faceless
useless and worthless
.........nameless...thats who i am

Khaufzada Aankhein

Toottha hay dil dekh kar
Tumhaari khaufzada aankhein
Kaisay marham lagaoon
Sambhaaloon tumhaari saansein

Shaid khyl hee samjhi thi
Jo sambhaal na saki
Kia meri hee waja se thi?
Khaufzada tumhaari aankhein?

Haan meri hee waja se thi
Rukti tumhaari saansein
Tum hee tho kehtay thay
Na jao tum yahan se

Gar meri iss zaat se
Chalti tumhaari saansein
Tho qurbaan ho jaoon mein
Na jaoon wahan se

Par meri hee waja se
Ruk gayi ye saansein
Aur meri hee badaulat hui
Aur khaufzada ye aankhein

Phir kaisa hay ye marham
Laayee hoon kahan se
Jo anjaan ban gayee.n do
Khaufzada ankhein

MERI GAWAHI

Yaqeen hay mujhko
Kay mohabbat ki thi
Usnay bhi iqrar ki
Kuch gharriyan di thi

Chupptay raho beshak
Tum iss zamaanay se
Hum tho jaantay hein.....
Ye sharaab humnay pi thi

Kaghaz pe siyahee
Koi manay nahi rakhti
Zubaan ki karwahat
Paymana nahi lagti

Kuch bhi kaho
Kehtay raho
In aankhon nay un aankhon se
Gawahi li thi

.........

Kia meetha sa maza hay
Kia ajab sa nasha hay
In lafzon nay pehlay
Aisi taqat na di thi.....

Dreams: SPACESHIP

Hot Flashes, Cold rushes
Awake in the darkness

The world is fleeing
Saying their goodbyes
I scan across the crowd
And i connect to ur eyes

DISCONNECT PLEASE!!!
UNLOCK THE TARGET

O the shaky night
The blurry red light
I saw somebody
I thought i might!!!

DISCONNECT PLEASE!!!
UNLOCK THE TARGET

Hold the door!!!
Ill be back!!
I grab ur hand
It turns black

DISCONNECT PLEASE!!!
UNLOCK THE TARGET

Can u just SHUTUP!!!
I turn around to see
The words seeping
Through my screen

DISCONNECT PLEASE!!!
UNLOCK THE TARGET

Make it STOP!!! make it stop!
Im going to a sacred land
Some kind of pilgrimmage
With one empty hand

Disconnected...
Target unlocked
Calm and collected
Communication blocked

I lay dead in the darkness
I lay untill another shock

AURAT KI MATTI....MERI MATTI

Aurat se mohabbat
Aik hunurr samjha jata hay
Aurat ki matti mein
Kuch aur paya jata hay

Laakh lagao tum, falsafon ki qataar
Iss matti ka falsafa, tumko nahi aata hay

Jo 'na' ko tum 'haan' kaho
Uss say khush ho jaati hay
Jo baat uski maan lo
Dilpe ussay sajaati hay

Jis naz ko utha kar, dil uska jeeta jaye
Ussi ko uthanay se, jaan tumhaari jaati hay

Narmi se tum kaam lo
Sab kuch maan jaati hay
Khushi uski jaan lo
Woh mowm ban jaati hay

Zubaan mein sakhti jab jab tum dikhlaogay
Aurat aakhir aurat hay, zubaan se darr jaati hay

Taaray aur sitaray
Sab dekhna chahthi hay
Duur hee sahi
Sirf roshni se jee jaati hay

Dunya se larti hui, Jisko tumnay balaa jana
Kabhi jhaank kay tho dekhtay, na parta aazmana

Naap tol kia karogay
Kay kaun kitna qaabil hay
Bhala tarazaoo mein bhi koi
Aurat ki whob hasil hay?

Agar kheltay aur tortay, kuch guriyon kay haath
Aaj tum insaaf kartay, Aurat ki matti kay saath


pathetic....this is why i lived with no expectations

TERA EHSAAN...MERI QADAR

Aik masoom si khwahish thi
kay tum mujhe piyaar se dekho
zubaan se phool jharein
aur meri aankhon mein izhaar dekho

Chund pal isko paya
Laga duniya mil gayee
Laikin Foran usko jataya
"Tum is qaabil thi nahee"

Jisko mein nay piyaar samjha
Woh ek ehsaan tha mujhpe
Un sab phoolon ki qeemat
Ek qarz hay mujhpe

Khuda ko kia moo dikhaoongi
Ehsaan kia utaar paoongi
Jis qarz ki qeemat, meray jism pe hay naqsh
Isko mita aur chuka na saki, tho ispe hee ghar banaoongi

Tumhara pyaar panay kay liay
Tumhara ehsaan utarnay kay liay
Tumhara qarz chukanay kay liay
Tumhara naqsh mitanay kay liay
Har aazmaish pe uturti gayee
Har farmaish pe sirakti gayee

Hairan thi duniya
Ye kia hua hay mujhko
Apnay sab asool aur khaab
Thama diye hein tujhko

Koi samjha nahi meray dilki kaifiat
Is qurbaani mein milti thi ik rahat
ik roshni kay shayed
Milaygi aur bhi chahat

Aankhon mein sitaray liay
Ye baat bhool jaati hoon
Jo pyaar karnay ko ehsaan samjhay
Ussi ko moo lagati hoon

Meri mohabbat ko jo ghalti samjhay
Meray ehsaas ko jo bud-neeyati samjhay
Meray ansoowo.n ko jo natak samjhay
Din raat ussi ko chahthi hoon

Yaad rahay kay tumhara
Ehsaan rahayga zindagi bhar
Khuda kay saamnay bhi
Tumhaari ghalti le loongi sar
Shayed issi tarha chuka sakoon mohabbat kay do pal
Ehsaan hee sahee....akhir kuch tho kia mujh par

....tumhara ehsaan hee hay.... meri qadar

MERI AADATEIN

Meri Kuch aadatein hein
jinse me na-waqif hoon

Meri kuch tasveerain hein
jinse mein na-aashna hoon

Dost kehtay hein, ye tum nahi
koi aur bolta hay

Aaina kehta hay, ye nigahein
uski apna chuki hoon

Meray mazaaq ka andaaz
kuch uskay jaisa hay

Mera logon se lihaaz
ka mayaar bhi waisa hay

Meri mojoodgi mein kummi
uski mojoodgi ki hay

Meri baatoon mein awaaz ka
....ye naya sur kaisa hay?

Nawaalon se lekur Huliye tak
apni pasand ki aadat nahi rahi

Ye sab shauq aur khasta jawaani
dikhanay ki zaroorat nahi rahi

Kia karoon kia na karoon
ab kaun mujhko tokay ga

Jab ander bahar khaali hoon
zindagi... woh soorat nahi rahi

Ye andaaz ab meray apnay hein
Na inko ghair banaongi

Ye alfaaz ab meray apnay hein
khud inko bol paoongi

Jub bhi apnay wajood ko
tumharay naam se tokoongi

Tumhaari aadaton kay naqsh par
mohar apni lagaoongi

MERI KHUSHIAN

Meri hur ik baat mein baat
milanay paye ho

Chaaron mausam kay rang
tor kay laye ho

Meray khaabon ki sub taabeerain
dikhla paye ho

Meri saari khushion mein shirkat karnay
.....tum.........aye ho

Kaheen meray har rang mein dhaltay huay
apnay rang bhool na jao

Ye samandar bohawwwt gehra hay
kaheen..... doob na jao

Tumhein bachanay kay liay
khud doob gayi hoon

Tumhein aazmatay huay
khud toot gayi hoon

Woh dopehrein, woh shaamein..... meri khushian
un khaabon se aitebaar utha chuki hoon

Tumhaari muskurahat kay liay
sab kuch dao pe laga chuki hoon

Tumhaari khushion ko meri umar lag jaye
is judai ka maqsad tumnay na jana

Tumhaari khushian hee meri khushian hein
kaheen ye ehsaan bhool na jana

MERI ZAMEEN

tumhaari awaaz mein aik dard hay
usko apnaya hay

tumharay dil ki sab pareshaanion ko
seenay say lagaya hay

sawal poochay bina, sab jawaabon ko
apna banaya hay

teray vaadon kay sab tukron par
aik chota sa ghar banaya hay

aik pal ki qurbat mein so pal ka hay sakoon
us aik pal kay intezaar ko bhi apnaya hay

itna duur na lay jao
kay pehchaan.na mushkil ho jaye

itna khamosh mat raho
kay bolna mushkil ho jaye

tumhein pehchannay mein
apni pehchaan ko bhulaya hay

sub rishton ko bhula kay
aik rishta banaya hay

sub saharon ko thukra kay
aik sahara jamaya hay

apnay aasman ko mita kay
tumko sajaya hay

aye meray aasmaan, iss raat ko itna mat kheecho
kay kal meri subha na aye

aye meri zameen, itna la-pata na ho
kay meray paoon la-pata ho jaye