RESIST ME

pure resistance is the game
without resisting its all the same

resistance means against the grain
resistance makes you take the blame

give me a chance and i'll resist you
no matter how much you persist to
find, define, unclutter and unwind
my resistance will assist you

to pull your hair
to walk bare
on shatter glass
and prepare

for, long nights and long days
just when u thought this was a phase
it will stay and never end
it'll become ur worst friend

resistance will grab and throw you
like a rollercoaster it will show you
the highs and lows, wherever you go
when you resist, people will know you

as a lover of life
who loves to pain
as a lover of everything
yet resisting the same

closeness of beings,
togetherness and seeing
the blooming of life
and u keep believing

that resistance will do it
it will bring you fame
resistance my love
is the name of my game

ILLUSIONS

What if I told you that I was ill
And you've made me sick forever
What if I told you I now live in illusions
And I cant heal myself, never

What if I told you that I was dying
From the poison you gave me
What if you only loved truly
And had never begraved me

What if all those words were lies
And I never meant anything to you
What if all these words are?
So that getting over me is easy for you

What if those moments were dreams
And you dreamt them too
What if these moments are?
Could I regret loving you?

What if you told me that you still love me
Would I ever think it's true
What if I said all the things I wanted to say
Would it mean anything to you?

What if you had told me that pain is what you do
I would have done the same instead of loving you

NAQIS

Kaun kehta hay
Kay tum bewafa niklay
Dukh tho meri wafa ka hay
Jiskay kayee janazay niklay

Meri wafa ka surkh kuffan
Jissay shauq se tumnay bheja tha
Uss kuffan kay guz bhi
Chaar haath kam niklay

Qismat ki baat hay
Wafa ya bewafai ki nahi
Meri naqis mohabbat kay
Tum haqdaar na niklay

Agar dhoonda jaye
Nuqs tho khuda mein bhi hay
Bewafai ko khuda bana kay
Hum hee bay-emaan niklay

AAJ KI KHABAR

Aaj raat kuch jaanna chahthi hoon
Koi bhi khabar, kuch bhi

Koi hass gaya, koi khel gaya
Koi mar gaya, koi mil gaya
Koi kahani apnana chahthi hoon
Koi bhi khabar, kuch bhi

Kissi ko salaam, kissi ko dua
Apnoon ko choro, ghairoon ki salah
Taazi nahi, puraani chahthi hoon
Koi bhi khabar, kuch bhi

Jisko sunn kar naya sa lagay
Jisko jaan kar munn ye kahay
Khud ko pehchanna chahthi hoon
Sunnaa do khabar kuch bhi

Jaisay saza sunai jaati hay
Bin bulaye mehmaan ki tarah
Apnay aangan mein bitthana chahthi hoon
Aaj lay aao khabar kuch bhi

ENCOUNTER

Tonight, I met u again
Nice to see you
Im pretty fucked up
Hope you are too

Ive been dying
Ive been crying
Everything that you never did
Did it for both of us, while u got rid

Of my hopes
Of my dreams
Of my innocence
You came clean

You've been lying
Been denying
You know this pain too
Why did I deserve this, what did i do

Im pretty fucked up
Hope you are too

A FAVORITE PASTIME

wonderful isnt it?
to bathe in the sun
to fight the breeze
and play in the trees

wonderful is the sun
when it shines on u and me
when it hides behind
and u call me sunshine

more wonderful it was to look at me
and a favorite pastime was all u cud see

joyous isnt it?
to collect raindrops
in the form of my soul
and devour me whole

wonderful is the rain
when it falls on u and me
ur hand in mine
and u call us divine

more wonderful it was to look at me
and a favorite pastime was all u cud see

NOTHING BUT DIRT

I am the sunshine that burns u inside
I am the safety that makes u collide
I am the sweetness thats salty
I am perfectness thats faulty

Or am I

Just Hurt
Waiting to be disposed
Yes I am, Nothing but dirt

I am the warmth that made u cold
Uncouth love that got old
I am the universe with no center
I am heaven that you wont enter

Or am I

Just Hurt
Waiting to be disposed
Yes I am, Nothing but dirt

BAY MISAAL

Ishq kia tha bay misaal
Kabhi kia aur kabhi nahi
Aaj thakawat say bayhaal
Tho aaj ishq ka mood nahi?

Iss ishq ka kia karoon
Jo thamm sa gaya hay
Aap kahein tho bas....
Dil bhar sa gaya hay

Ishq aik jazba hay
Koi kia karay ga
Jo aap nay kia hay
Kia bhi aur nahi bhi

BLACK HOLE

There's a black hole in my soul
I wait for it to finish what's left

I fed it, memories, my tears, my sleep
I fed it, love

I threw in my faith n dreams
All possibilities
The ungrateful black hole
Wants nothing but me

I fed it, deception, ur words, ur lies
I fed it, truth

I fed it all the ugliness
That I could see
It wants more than that
Wants nothing but me

I fed it, torture, pain and shame
I fed it, my heart

I gave in and begged it to
Set my soul free
It wouldnt settle for anything
Wants nothing but me

I stand at the edge and
Stare pointlessly
My brittle existance, and the darkness
Waiting to devour me

MERA NAYA ISHQ

Takleef ka ye alam
Kay aadat ho chulli hay
Jab bhi dard kum ho
Takleef ziada hoti hay

Kaheen nahi jayegi ye
Ghar bana bethi hay
Meray dil kay har konay mein
Takleef hee tho behti hay

Dilasoon se jeet gayi
Waqt se takrai hay
Marnay nahi degi
Yehi soch kar ayi hay

Meri yaaddaasht pe
Neel ban kay chaayi hay
Jab bhi tumko yaad karoon
Takleef hee paayi hay

Din ho ya raat
Andhera lay kar ayi hay
Meray har dard ki dawa
Rub nay takleef banai hay

Kioon na isko apnaa loon
Dost apna bana loon
Jab saath saath hee rehna ho
Tho galay se laga loon

Itni saari mohabbat
Jo zaya ho jaye
Kioon na takleef se hee
Ishq kar liya jaye

Na degi dhoka
Na degi ghum
Takleef tho takleef hay
Uss se ishq kareingay hum

Tum jaisay nahi...
Ishq kay maani jaantay hein hum
Takleef khud tumhein bataeygi
Ussay kaisay chahthay hein hum

TASTE OF DEATH

Ashes of remains falling from my sky
Smoke playing games in front of my eyes
Wanting it to cease, wanting to forget
I took the chance and tasted death

Death was my friend
Death was my love
Death was peace
And none of the above

Death gave me birth
When i took the dive
Death gave me life
And i wanted to survive

I felt your absence in a tight vacuum
I saw the bright sun in a dark room
Wanting it to cease, wanting to forget
I took the chance and tasted death

Death was my friend
Death was my love
Death was peace
And none of the above

Death took me near
It took me away
Death gave me life
And im here to stay

Sweet reveries floated and filled the sink
Drowning in a whirlpool as i blinked
Wanting it to cease, wanting to forget
I took the chance and tasted death

Death was my friend
Death was my love
Death was peace
And none of the above

Death was soft
Warm as day
Death gave me life
And its here to stay

JASHAN

Aao hassein phir aik baar
Bhool kay saaray gham
Mein karoon phool ka singhaar
Aur ghom jayein hum

Aao chalein unn rahoon par
Jahan dil tha narum
Tum thaamo mera haath
Aur na chorein tumko hum

Aao bethein uss baagh mein
Dhoop ko karein jawaan
Chund lamhoon ki fursat mein
Amar jee lein hum

Amar aik dhoka hay
Uss se nazar chura kay
La-pata ghariyon ko
Dhoka de dein hum

Aaooo naaa... aao chalein
Samandar kay uss kinaray
Mein, tum aur poora chaand
Aur chaandni mein doobay hum

Aao karein yaqeen
Aur karein naz
Tum meri nazron pe
Teray lafzon pe hum

Aao bhool jayein ye
Chaar dewaari, din aur raat
Hum kahein tho shaam ho
Aur din bulayein hum

Aaa jao jaan.... jashan manayein
Lamhoon ko karein jawaan
Tum palkon se sharaab do
Aur peetay hee jayein hum

MERI QEEMAT

Meri bahoon ki garmi ki
Meray chehray ki narmi ki
Qeemat....do aanay

Meray baalon ko lehranay ki
Unki khushboo churanay ki
Qeemat....do aanay

Meray ghatia se dil ki
Usmein behtay bayhaya lahoo ki
Qeemat....do aanay

Meray haathon ko thaamnay ki
Unko gumrah karnay ki
Qeemat....do aanay

Meri nazuk si kamar ki
Usmein gehray kumaan ki
Qeemat....do aanay

Inn aankhon ko choomnay ki
Ansoowon kay qatar ki
Qeemat....do aanay

Inn hoonton ko choomnay ki
Unki hassi churanay ki
Qeemat....do aanay

Aasmaan pe lay jakay
Khaak mein milanay ki
Qeemat......................koi na jaanay

CHORI

Churaya na ja sakay
Tha kuch aisa mera kahazana
Kis pay ilzaam lagaoon
Kay chori hui hay

Ishq kay nashay mein
Kuch aisay andhay huay
Kay nazroon kay saamnay hee
Chori hui hay

Unn naram hatheliyon mein
Kuch aisay naachtay gaye
Kay jhoomtay mein hee
Chori hui hay

Sazaa kay naam pay
Kasoor-waar jo thehray
Iss qaid mein baithay hee
Chori hui hay

Jin lafzon kay pul pay
Bay-lagaam aagay barhay
Unn lafzon ki bhi
Chori hui hay

Jis zameen pe kharay
Jis aasmaan kay neechay
Unnhee kay beech
Chori hui hay

Meri in rugon mein
Dortay huay khoon ki
Meray hee wajood se
Chori hui hay

Meray iss seenay mein
Kuch bhataktthi hui
Aakhri saanson ki
Chori hui hay

Meray iss munn mein
Meray hee khuda pe
Meray hee emaan ki
Chori hui hay

Iss bay-maani ishq mein
Marnay se pehlay
Meri hee rooh ki
Chori hui hay

Iss chhanni jaisay dil ki
Khotay bay-qeemat dil ki
Neelaami par hee
Chori hui hay

Teri hee khidmat mein
Paysh kartay huay
Meri hee jaan ki
Chori hui hay

Kia kia bataoon
Kaisay loota hay mujhko
Meray bayaan ki bhi
Chori hui hay

Teray taaza lahoo mein
Laga-tar behtay
Meray hee naam ki
Chori hui hay

Prayalysis

Last night HE disabled my senses
Anything but afraid
I prayed lying frozen
I prayed

I prayed to keep me disabled
I prayed to make me deaf and dumb
What difference would've it made?
I prayed

I prayed to take my life away
So I never step off of that bed
I prayed for the tears to fade
I prayed

I prayed I couldnt speak again
And lay helpless as an excuse
To never stop your soul again
I prayed

I prayed I couldnt move again
To remain limbless and lifeless on that bed
To never hold ur hand again
I prayed

I prayed I couldnt open these eyes again
To make me blind and unable to find
Unable to trace that face again
I prayed

I prayed effortlessly
To restrict my next breath
To experience death
I prayed

I prayed to make me mush
Crumble all my flesh and bone
So I could'nt hurt you and push
I prayed

But who would tell you
That I was dead
'May you never notice'
I prayed

I prayed
I prayed
I prayed
Untill I broke the silence with ur name

SHAMELESS??

painless
senseless and sweatless
out of breath

sleepless
dreamless
weightless...not much left

pennyless
jobless
limitless...thats who i was

scopeless
aimless
a coward...thats who i am

timeless
startless and endless, where to begin
emptiness, thats where im in

pointless
wordless
nothing to prove, no one to blame

hopeless
baseless and trustless
defenseless...thats who i am

loveless
lifeless
pittyless and barren

faceless
useless and worthless
.........nameless...thats who i am

Khaufzada Aankhein

Toottha hay dil dekh kar
Tumhaari khaufzada aankhein
Kaisay marham lagaoon
Sambhaaloon tumhaari saansein

Shaid khyl hee samjhi thi
Jo sambhaal na saki
Kia meri hee waja se thi?
Khaufzada tumhaari aankhein?

Haan meri hee waja se thi
Rukti tumhaari saansein
Tum hee tho kehtay thay
Na jao tum yahan se

Gar meri iss zaat se
Chalti tumhaari saansein
Tho qurbaan ho jaoon mein
Na jaoon wahan se

Par meri hee waja se
Ruk gayi ye saansein
Aur meri hee badaulat hui
Aur khaufzada ye aankhein

Phir kaisa hay ye marham
Laayee hoon kahan se
Jo anjaan ban gayee.n do
Khaufzada ankhein

MERI GAWAHI

Yaqeen hay mujhko
Kay mohabbat ki thi
Usnay bhi iqrar ki
Kuch gharriyan di thi

Chupptay raho beshak
Tum iss zamaanay se
Hum tho jaantay hein.....
Ye sharaab humnay pi thi

Kaghaz pe siyahee
Koi manay nahi rakhti
Zubaan ki karwahat
Paymana nahi lagti

Kuch bhi kaho
Kehtay raho
In aankhon nay un aankhon se
Gawahi li thi

.........

Kia meetha sa maza hay
Kia ajab sa nasha hay
In lafzon nay pehlay
Aisi taqat na di thi.....

Dreams: SPACESHIP

Hot Flashes, Cold rushes
Awake in the darkness

The world is fleeing
Saying their goodbyes
I scan across the crowd
And i connect to ur eyes

DISCONNECT PLEASE!!!
UNLOCK THE TARGET

O the shaky night
The blurry red light
I saw somebody
I thought i might!!!

DISCONNECT PLEASE!!!
UNLOCK THE TARGET

Hold the door!!!
Ill be back!!
I grab ur hand
It turns black

DISCONNECT PLEASE!!!
UNLOCK THE TARGET

Can u just SHUTUP!!!
I turn around to see
The words seeping
Through my screen

DISCONNECT PLEASE!!!
UNLOCK THE TARGET

Make it STOP!!! make it stop!
Im going to a sacred land
Some kind of pilgrimmage
With one empty hand

Disconnected...
Target unlocked
Calm and collected
Communication blocked

I lay dead in the darkness
I lay untill another shock

AURAT KI MATTI....MERI MATTI

Aurat se mohabbat
Aik hunurr samjha jata hay
Aurat ki matti mein
Kuch aur paya jata hay

Laakh lagao tum, falsafon ki qataar
Iss matti ka falsafa, tumko nahi aata hay

Jo 'na' ko tum 'haan' kaho
Uss say khush ho jaati hay
Jo baat uski maan lo
Dilpe ussay sajaati hay

Jis naz ko utha kar, dil uska jeeta jaye
Ussi ko uthanay se, jaan tumhaari jaati hay

Narmi se tum kaam lo
Sab kuch maan jaati hay
Khushi uski jaan lo
Woh mowm ban jaati hay

Zubaan mein sakhti jab jab tum dikhlaogay
Aurat aakhir aurat hay, zubaan se darr jaati hay

Taaray aur sitaray
Sab dekhna chahthi hay
Duur hee sahi
Sirf roshni se jee jaati hay

Dunya se larti hui, Jisko tumnay balaa jana
Kabhi jhaank kay tho dekhtay, na parta aazmana

Naap tol kia karogay
Kay kaun kitna qaabil hay
Bhala tarazaoo mein bhi koi
Aurat ki whob hasil hay?

Agar kheltay aur tortay, kuch guriyon kay haath
Aaj tum insaaf kartay, Aurat ki matti kay saath


pathetic....this is why i lived with no expectations

TERA EHSAAN...MERI QADAR

Aik masoom si khwahish thi
kay tum mujhe piyaar se dekho
zubaan se phool jharein
aur meri aankhon mein izhaar dekho

Chund pal isko paya
Laga duniya mil gayee
Laikin Foran usko jataya
"Tum is qaabil thi nahee"

Jisko mein nay piyaar samjha
Woh ek ehsaan tha mujhpe
Un sab phoolon ki qeemat
Ek qarz hay mujhpe

Khuda ko kia moo dikhaoongi
Ehsaan kia utaar paoongi
Jis qarz ki qeemat, meray jism pe hay naqsh
Isko mita aur chuka na saki, tho ispe hee ghar banaoongi

Tumhara pyaar panay kay liay
Tumhara ehsaan utarnay kay liay
Tumhara qarz chukanay kay liay
Tumhara naqsh mitanay kay liay
Har aazmaish pe uturti gayee
Har farmaish pe sirakti gayee

Hairan thi duniya
Ye kia hua hay mujhko
Apnay sab asool aur khaab
Thama diye hein tujhko

Koi samjha nahi meray dilki kaifiat
Is qurbaani mein milti thi ik rahat
ik roshni kay shayed
Milaygi aur bhi chahat

Aankhon mein sitaray liay
Ye baat bhool jaati hoon
Jo pyaar karnay ko ehsaan samjhay
Ussi ko moo lagati hoon

Meri mohabbat ko jo ghalti samjhay
Meray ehsaas ko jo bud-neeyati samjhay
Meray ansoowo.n ko jo natak samjhay
Din raat ussi ko chahthi hoon

Yaad rahay kay tumhara
Ehsaan rahayga zindagi bhar
Khuda kay saamnay bhi
Tumhaari ghalti le loongi sar
Shayed issi tarha chuka sakoon mohabbat kay do pal
Ehsaan hee sahee....akhir kuch tho kia mujh par

....tumhara ehsaan hee hay.... meri qadar

MERI AADATEIN

Meri Kuch aadatein hein
jinse me na-waqif hoon

Meri kuch tasveerain hein
jinse mein na-aashna hoon

Dost kehtay hein, ye tum nahi
koi aur bolta hay

Aaina kehta hay, ye nigahein
uski apna chuki hoon

Meray mazaaq ka andaaz
kuch uskay jaisa hay

Mera logon se lihaaz
ka mayaar bhi waisa hay

Meri mojoodgi mein kummi
uski mojoodgi ki hay

Meri baatoon mein awaaz ka
....ye naya sur kaisa hay?

Nawaalon se lekur Huliye tak
apni pasand ki aadat nahi rahi

Ye sab shauq aur khasta jawaani
dikhanay ki zaroorat nahi rahi

Kia karoon kia na karoon
ab kaun mujhko tokay ga

Jab ander bahar khaali hoon
zindagi... woh soorat nahi rahi

Ye andaaz ab meray apnay hein
Na inko ghair banaongi

Ye alfaaz ab meray apnay hein
khud inko bol paoongi

Jub bhi apnay wajood ko
tumharay naam se tokoongi

Tumhaari aadaton kay naqsh par
mohar apni lagaoongi

MERI KHUSHIAN

Meri hur ik baat mein baat
milanay paye ho

Chaaron mausam kay rang
tor kay laye ho

Meray khaabon ki sub taabeerain
dikhla paye ho

Meri saari khushion mein shirkat karnay
.....tum.........aye ho

Kaheen meray har rang mein dhaltay huay
apnay rang bhool na jao

Ye samandar bohawwwt gehra hay
kaheen..... doob na jao

Tumhein bachanay kay liay
khud doob gayi hoon

Tumhein aazmatay huay
khud toot gayi hoon

Woh dopehrein, woh shaamein..... meri khushian
un khaabon se aitebaar utha chuki hoon

Tumhaari muskurahat kay liay
sab kuch dao pe laga chuki hoon

Tumhaari khushion ko meri umar lag jaye
is judai ka maqsad tumnay na jana

Tumhaari khushian hee meri khushian hein
kaheen ye ehsaan bhool na jana

MERI ZAMEEN

tumhaari awaaz mein aik dard hay
usko apnaya hay

tumharay dil ki sab pareshaanion ko
seenay say lagaya hay

sawal poochay bina, sab jawaabon ko
apna banaya hay

teray vaadon kay sab tukron par
aik chota sa ghar banaya hay

aik pal ki qurbat mein so pal ka hay sakoon
us aik pal kay intezaar ko bhi apnaya hay

itna duur na lay jao
kay pehchaan.na mushkil ho jaye

itna khamosh mat raho
kay bolna mushkil ho jaye

tumhein pehchannay mein
apni pehchaan ko bhulaya hay

sub rishton ko bhula kay
aik rishta banaya hay

sub saharon ko thukra kay
aik sahara jamaya hay

apnay aasman ko mita kay
tumko sajaya hay

aye meray aasmaan, iss raat ko itna mat kheecho
kay kal meri subha na aye

aye meri zameen, itna la-pata na ho
kay meray paoon la-pata ho jaye